Riley's Letter

Dear Riley,

It seems like yesterday that you were in my belly and I could feel your every move. I knew from the start that you would make a grand entrance into this world and would continue to bless us every day. The day you were born was so special for us, to finally see our beautiful little girl.

It's hard to beleive that it has almost been a year since you were born. Each day I love you more and more. This is a love I never knew before you and you will not understand until you have a child of your own. I would do anything to protect you from harm and pain.

Every morning you greet me with a great big smile that jump starts my day. I love to watch you grow and develop, and learn something new with each passing moment. I know there are times that I might seem upset with you, but please know I'm not upset with you just tired from lack of sleep!

I wish I could keep you little forever as I know one day I will have to let you go into the world. I love having you with me and wante me when you are tired or not feeling good. This one day will change as you become a teenager and no longer feel that you need me. Riley you are the best gift God has given me. I don't think I could thank him enough for blessing me with you. I just pray each day that God gives me the strength to be a wonderful mother to you and to help you learn about His devine love.

Love,
Mom

Better Late than Never

This is just a little journal about my day to day experinces as a new mom. I don't know how new I can consider myself since my baby girl is almost 10 months old. Every day is a new development a new experience and sometimes a new meltdown!

She has lately started holding herself up and she will sit herself down with out holding anything. I think she may be trying to stand on her own. Although this is exciting I am also sadned that my baby that was just recently in my belly, at least that's how it feels, is growing up. I'm afraid I'm going to blink and she is going to be a teenager giving me greif! I guess I shouldn't complain as she is a happy healthy girl. Although we did have some scares with her. Her birth was a bit dramatic. She was born 15 days early and not on her own accord. I had high blood pressure, and my placenta was no longer providing her with nutrients causing her to not grow. They induced me and after a long day and night her heart rate dropped. After this happened they ended up delivering her by emergency cesearian.

We have had some obsticles with her as well. At about 3 months she would scream for no reason wich was diagnosed as reflux. This soon led to her spitting up majority of her food. After months of switching formulas and mulitple medications they finally diagnosed her with a spastic pyloric muscle (I may have spelled that wrong), which is the muscle at the end of your stomach. Basically her food didn't drain from her intestines to her stomach as quickly asit should have. She is nw very healthy and can eat regular meals.

I am very blessed to have such a wonderful, beautiful and healthy baby. I sometimes feel guilty knowing that there are people out there who will never know what it is to be at the stage we are at with their baby. For this I ask God for strength and guidence for theses families and for myself.